In Access we often talk about following the energy or asking a question to determine what feels light and what feels heavy, with the response that feels light being the yes answer and the response that feels heavy being the no answer. Some of us feel this concept more as expansion vs. contraction. For me, … Continue reading What does it mean to be expanded or contracted?
Recently, I had a day where I felt very weird and I had time to create in my fun projects I have added, but nothing felt fun. I was just tired, heavy and felt like there was something missing. I started making the conclusion that I missed someone. And made it even more significant, by choosing … Continue reading When you think you are missing – someone
So often I have found myself directing my energy towards men. I mean in a relationship or just when I am interested in one of them. I’ve spent so much of my energy to try to feel what the other person feels, or trying to figure out what I have to be, or do, to … Continue reading Relate or Create
Dear Doubt , There's just no other way to say this: I'm breaking up with you. We had a long and not so nice life together. I'm grateful for the security/safety blanket role you played, as designed for this reality. I get it, but you need to know that I really am breaking up with you now. Doubt, you are … Continue reading Breaking up with Doubt
I lost my mother rather unexpectedly about a year ago. This was a very different experience for me and one that invited me to see how many expectations there are around death and grieving. Six years ago, my mother became rapidly ill with Parkinson’s disease. It started wit a small tremor in one hand and … Continue reading Grief and Relief
All of my life I dodged higher education because I had this awareness I would have to conform to their reality. I didn’t have the tools I have today to create my own reality. I could only see the polarity in life. Either I stayed me and kind of stayed away from the schools or … Continue reading Wild at heart