All of my life I dodged higher education because I had this awareness I would have to conform to their reality. I didn’t have the tools I have today to create my own reality. I could only see the polarity in life. Either I stayed me and kind of stayed away from the schools or I could go study and be irritated in my body and soul by being at the affect of the strict regulations of what’s right what’s wrong, and the narrow determination of what reality is. Obviously, I was in a bit of a big conclusion there, but I didn’t know anything different at the time. Now I see it totally differently.
Let me take you back a few years (hrm, well quite a few actually…). This was when I was getting really good grades as the good little girl I was at that time, and doing the school thing right. Everyone expected me to go into higher education. They thought that I was meant for the academic world. Meanwhile in my heart, I wanted to explore and create. My parents wouldn’t let me study art. Their point of few was that first I had to have at least a formal education for some kind of job so that I had something to ”fall back on,” This is basically a cloaked way of saying that I would never make it as an artist.
So I took the most pragmatic solution I could find, which was to go to school to become a nursery teacher, with 2 years education. And I started working directly thereafter.
A few years later I finally took a sabbatical, and studied art for a year, which was a really, tremendously fun period. I had so much energy! I also worked at a tiny local TV station during my studies. Oh the fun we had!
Then I got divorced. It wasn’t really pragmatic to stay in art studies having no income and trying to get an apartment.
After some years I started really searching for that bigger reality I had always known to be possible. I studied different modalities only to be disappointed, because they were never the solution. It was always just another set of rules to adjust to and live by, and never the freedom my heart yearned for.
You know the saying when the student is ready the teacher arrives? I was so ripe that I was practically going to rot if I hadn’t stumbled on Access Consciousness. Stumbled across? Okay, I invited Access to come to me, I know!
I finally got that there was nothing wrong with me!!!
There was nothing to fix or hide. In fact it is quite the contrary. There are so many tools to help us start shedding the layers of other peoples points of view, and the strict rules of what’s right and wrong and expected in this reality.
What if you one day found out that you are way more different than you ever thought, and that there is no way you can fit in to this reality? In fact the rules do not apply to you!
Would it make any difference in your world?
It sure did in mine. I started questioning every time I went to that self judgement place or thought (or when I was made to believe) there was something wrong with me.
Instead of that old record playing ”What’s wrong with me?”
I replaced it with:
”What’s so brilliant about me that I haven’t yet acknowledged, that if I would acknowledge it would change everything?”
And it did!
Can you imagine living without the constricted reality of the walls of the unmalleable reality. Can you imagine waking up every day asking:
”Who am I today and what grand and glorious adventure will I have?”
Would that make any difference in your world? Would it be an invitation of infinite possibilities, rather than the conclusions of what is possible and what is not? It makes all the difference in the world to me.
A question empowers and opens the door for infinite possibilities, so the universe can actually gift to you. When we go to conclusion, we close the doors for anything else than what we have concluded to show up.
What if you realized how different you are? And I mean really different, not just a little different almost like the others just some slight variations. No, I mean unique in every way.
Hint: you already kind of have your own reality since no one else is like you. Just somehow we have been made to believe we have to desperately try and be average, real and the same as everyone else.
So I invite you to start being different, start being the you that you have always known you are! Ask these powerful questions, and start living in the reality you create. One that is joyful, and fun, and energetic—just like You!
The processes and questions found in this text are from Access Consciousness which was founded by Gary Douglas and Dr. Dain Heer, and among other things is a set of tools which assist people in becoming more conscious about the way in which they move through the world. You can find more information about Access by visiting www.accessconsciousness.com or by getting in touch with me.