The multi presence of me

walking reflectionsOne day several years ago, on the way home from work, I suddenly had this desire to not go on a routine way home but instead take another way that I never took before. I had a short walk up the hill and came through a small grove. Suddenly the air felt thick, like a soup where everything is connected together, where there is no in-between-spaces. And then I felt as someone was watching me from behind, I felt a presence.

I turned around to see but there were no one there, I walked a few more steps and looked again, even if I knew full well no one was there, but the feeling of a presence was so vivid.

Then I suddenly realized the presence… was me! 

I was there also behind me– 

–and in my body 

–and actually in several places at once…!

It was a most unexpected and different experience!

Time came to a stand still, or rather had no relevance.

And then I had this strong sense of this reality being just like a thin layer or like a film screen projecting everything we thought was so real, and called life and reality. But really, it was so thin I could almost see through it!

Maybe if we shifted our awareness ever so slightly we would see something else entirely!

I could just sense it, so present.

Were you ever aware of things as a child you were taught was childish nonsense and not possible?

And you know how we are entrenched to buy the decided limitations of this reality, how we build on it by scientific facts and empiric evidence. How we are taught to ignore our awareness in favor of aligning and agreeing on the decided set of beliefs and limitations that our society have. How we are blinding ourselves to anything that doesn’t matching those beliefs and limitations. Can you feel how this really narrows it down to be a neat little box and we have to have those damn filtered glasses on too that only allows what we have concluded were right and true.

My life was different from that moment of sensing the multiprecense and the thin layer of reality. Something changed dramatically for me. The sense I always had that there was so much more possible, that I had almost put totally away, and got labeled as childish fantasies, became a possibility again.

Would you be willing to see it, and see you, really see you for all the potency and presence you are, even if it “makes no sense”? 

What is it that you know that you are pretending not to know that if you would acknowledge that you know, would change everything?

The processes and questions found in this text are from or inspired by Access Consciousness which was founded by Gary Douglas and Dr. Dain Heer, and among other things is a set of tools which assist people in becoming more conscious about the way in which they move through the world. You can find more information about Access by visiting or by getting in touch with me.

Johan Ander

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